Evil lurks in Idleness

I've been feeling terrible the past few days. Last night really topped it off, i've finally managed to get some sleep amids the coughing and sneezing, only to wake up a few hours after with horrible nagging cough and extremely sore throat. The worse thing was that since my nose were runny i had to breath from my mouth butt at the same time my throat was very sore, so really the experience was truly hellish. I went down to get some water, then my mum wakes up hearing my coughing. She then tends to me, making me teas, giving me some antibiotics, she then even tucks me back to bed.

This is a far cry from the last time i was sick. I was still living alone in Melbourne at the time, and the flu was no less meaner. I remember gasping for some air, and feeling awfully thirsty. I had to crawl from my bed to the kitchen and boils some water. I then had to rummage the medicine drawer trying to read the label without my glasses. I finally given up the hot water because the kettle seems to take forever and i was too drowsy and weak to wait any longer. I crawl back to bed desperately missing home and my mum that i almost cry. Really illness do takes people to their most vunerable. I spent the rest of the night in agony, gasping for some air, and not able to stir at all nor to sleep.

By no means i was lonely when i was living alone. Friends swarms through my door all the time, and the outings are endless. But when you are sick and confined to bed then the aloneness (is there such word???) becomes loneliness. My friends do come over during the day, bringing me soups and everything. However the nights are truly nightmarish, because when you are sick there's no telling when you're going to wake up to a headache stupor or nagging cough and sore throat. And when it happens the last thing you want is to be alone. You'd want to be taken care of, you'd want someone to soothe you, or at the very least you'd want to know that if the worst thing happen there will be someone to takes you to hospital. Actually that was one of the thing i was most afraid of when i was living alone, to get really really sick and die at home because nobody was there to get some help.