2007

Another new year… yes, yes this is also another boring new year recollection and resolution. But hey, this is my blog and where else would I write my sorry piece if not on my sorry blog.
Okeih… let’s see what had been happening in my life during 2006 apart from the obvious like changing jobs, changing geographic location, changing friendster relationship status. Just a quick recap if you haven’t been following my blog (and may I ask why?), I started the year living in Indonesia working for an insurance company and happily or not too happily immerse in a long distance couple hood. Fast forward a few months I was still living in Indonesia but minus my job and my couple hood. After a spell in middle east, I moved to Singapore in the pursuit of both my career advancement and my ex. Cut story short, I got myself a job which I actually enjoy, I’ve gave up my ex, and now just living my life by ear.
Now, lets get down to the main course. What did the year taught me? I’ve spent a good part of my adult life searching for Mr. Right, and even at the stage that I know that it’s not quite right I still refuse to budge. Truly I was an obsessed woman, obsessed of making my relationship work. May I remind you, I’m that woman who resigned moved to another country only to seek confirmation that my relationship was well and truly over. The good things about the experience are:
It makes me realize that I have the ability of doing things all the way and not just do things halfway. Well of course unfortunately the ‘thing’ wasn’t really appropriate.
There are too many uncertainties in relationship department that in some cases no matter how much you push for it a good chance that it will still not work out. So consequently you should not plan your life around this particular sector.
Work is actually a sector in your life that can be most rewarding and to some extend has less uncertainty. Hence planning your life around this particular sector is wiser than the above.
Most important of all truly believe the saying ‘whenever a door closed, a window opened.’ For me, my obsession with relationship is my door and my newfound interest in my career is my newly fitted window.
So yeah, I’ve learned to accept things that I cannot change (read: cannot force relationship) and change things I can change (read: work hard for career). Never be afraid of changes because you simply will never know what is stored for you unless you try it. I moved across the ocean for something so uncertain I sometime still kick myself for it and in return I actually found something I didn’t think I will ever have…contentment.