Cont from prev Posting

Now is 7.21 in the morning, I’ve just had a light breakfast and ready to go to bed finally. I decided to end my sleepless night by joining the Sunday mass at dawn. So I drive to the church unshowered, unkempted, at around 5.30 ist, sat there for a while before joining the Sunday mass. In the sermon the priest read a passage from someone that said something like “When I asked for comfort, You gave me pain. When I asked for security, You gave me worry. When I asked for relief, You gave me burdens.” And the message was that He never gives you what you want, but only what you needs. A teaching I know all my life, nothing new in the message, but just about the answer I need after my sleepless night. My project fails miserable even though all the while I’ve praying for meeting my future significant other and make all the efforts, because as much as I want to it was not what I need for now. So yeah now I think I’ll sleep and waits for my significant other whenever the Lord decides that it’s what I need. Beside I think I’ve just received as sign that God thinks I need to sleep now, so I better abide.

Ps: There wasn't any choir in the dawn mass, but someone was singing Angelicus and it was unbelievable lovely. A small consolation gift from God after my lousy night, and this kind of thing is the reason why i love having my God in my life.