Marahkah Tuhan?

Gua: Hallo, tuhan ya

Tuhan: Iya lah, emangnya Pierce Brosnan , ngarep!

Gua: Hihihi, iyah siapa tau, eh Tuhan Tuhan mau nanyak boleh gak?

Tuhan: Mau nanya apaan? Kalo soal jodoh sama duit percuma deh elu tanyain terus juga..

Gua: Engga mau nanya, Tuhan marah ya?

Tuhan: Koq tumben nanyanya begitu? Emangnya kenapa?

Gua: Ehmm, ya abisan kan barusan bencana Tsunami itu, heboh banget, yang meninggal puluhan ribu. Seriously Tuhan, bencana yang ini engga banget loh, udah kaya di film aja. Sebegitu marahnya ya Tuhan? Sampe harus mengorbankan sebegitu banyak orang.

Tuhan: Mon, gua tanya deh dulu di sekolah minggu diajarin apa?

Gua: Diajarin apa yah? Udah lupa lah tuhan orang udah jadul berat gitu

Tuhan: Jadul, apa elu tidur melulu? Nih gua kasi rekamannya elu tonton bentar.

(abis nonton percakapan dilanjutin)
Gua: Engg, Tuhan di sekolah minggu diajarin bahwa Tuhan tuh gembala yang baik. Seekor domba pun pasti diselamatkan. Dan semua mahluk dibumi Tuhan urusin, dari rumput sampai bintang.

Tuhan: Nah, coba pikir apa mungkin seorang gembala nyelakain kawanan dombanya, gara gara dia marah? Ada gak sih seorang bapak nyelakain anak anaknya gara gara dia bete sama anak anaknya, kalo engga bapaknya gendheng?

Gua: Engg, ya engga sih

Tuhan: Emang gua suka sebel sama elu pada, heran jadi anak koq bandel banget. Udah dibilang harus nurut gua masih aja batu, semaunya sendiri. Kalo gua bukan Tuhan mungkin elu semua emang udah gua bom aja dari dulu. Cuma karena gua Tuhan, kapasitas mencintai gua tuh more than you can imagine. Secinta cintanya elu sama Pierce Brosnan masih jauh lebih cinta gua sama elu pada.

Gua: Tapi Tuhan, kenapa ada bencana itu kalo Tuhan engga marah

Tuhan: Mon, elu kenapa keipo (pengen tauan aja) banget sih. Mestinya segede elu udah harus ngerti bahwa semua itu sudah gua direncanakan. Dan rencana ini tuh elu pasti gak ngerti. Ini urusan gua bukan urusan elu. Percaya gua walaupun gua jelasin ke elu, elu pasti engga ngerti juga. Mendingan elu nurut aja terima jadi.

Gua: Iya deh, Tuhan. Tapi bener kan Tuhan engga marah. Eh tapi, aku tetep minta maap ya Tuhan, suka bikin kesel Tuhan. Janji deh aku akan mengusahakan supaya lebih nurut. Tapi usaha loh Tuhan, hasilnya ya engga jamin.

Tuhan: Iyah Iyah, udah mendingan elu tidur lagi, bentar lagi dah pagi loh. Jangan mimpiin gua lagi yah, banyak kerjaan nih.

Gua: Ok, g’nite tuhan, luv you

Tuhan: luv you too

Percakapan Imaginer yang cukup real

Percakapan in terjadi sembari nyokap gua ngerokin gua
Nyokap: Tuh kan sakit, heran pergi terus sih !
Gua: Iya, mah
Nyokap: Emangnya kamu pikir superman, tiap hari pulang malem terus !
Gua: Iya, mah
Nyokap: Emang kamu ngapain sih pulang malem terus, heran !
Gua: Ya kerja mah (padahal sih banyak jalan jalannya juga)
Nyokap: Kaya gadis malam aja kerjanya!
Gua: Iya, mah
Nyokap: Pokoknya kalo kamu sakit lagi mama engga mau ngerokin lagi! Suru aja bos kamu!!

Resolusi

In a very short while bakalan taun baru. Temen gua kemaren nanya new years resolution gua tercapai gak. Gua bingung, salah satu new year resolution gua taun lalu adalah supaya dapet kerja. Waktu itu gua m asih di Melbourne, dan akhirnya pertengahan taun gua pulang karena gak dapet kerja di sana. Tapi toh akhirnya gua kerja , walaupun di Jakarta. Hmm menurut gua untuk yang ini bisa diitung tercapai dong, Jakarta, Melbourne apa bedanya sih. Ehmm resolusi gua yang laen seperti mau menguruskan badan, so pasti bubar pasar. Resolusi gua pengen mengeksplorasi hobi hobi gua tercapai juga ah, walaupun hobinya murahan seperti masak (bagian ini sih hobi campur tuntutan juga siy, karena pas tinggal sendiri ya kalo mau makan harus masak dong), menjait juga tercapai walaupun dalam kurn waktu setaun gua cuma bisa menghasilkan dua sarung bantal dengan ukuran engga jamak, rok dari bahan korden yang engga di kelim, sepasang piama yang sampe sekarang belom dikasi kancing. Oh iya gua juga bertekad untuk me refurbish kamar gua, dan yang ini berhasil banget. Kamar gua gua cat garis garis pink (warna rumah barbie), trus gua beli meja kecil sama peti segede dosa di pasar loak trus gua cat sendiri. Pokoknya shabby chic abis. Dannn tapi 3 bulan setelah kamar manis gua itu rampung, gua disuratkan gua pindah ke Indo lagi. Huaaa, dan perabotan shabby chic gua ituh semuanya dibuang sama nyokap gua, Huaaaaa. Padahal buat semua perabotan itu gua rela jam 6 pagi udah bangun dan ke pasar loak dingin dingin. Belom lagi ngangkut dari mobil ke flat gua. Bayangin aja dari basement gua harus ngegotong sampe lantai tiga dannn engga ada lift. Dah gitu smeua orang masih dengan manis ngorok di ranjang masing masing jadi gua gak ada yang bantuin. Huaaa gua sekarang jadi pengen nangis, kira kira apa ya nasib perabotan loak gua itu.
Resolusi gua baut taun depan masih gua pikirin dan gua bakal cerita akhir taun depan aja. Soalnya takut kalo cerita dari sekarang nanti malah jinxed it.

Huargggg

What i'm feeling rite now is total annoyance and frustration. Never mind the cause, but what i want to share is now i finally understand how one could have heart attack out of sheer stress, or the climax of it. The urge to swear is so high that my mouth feel itchy, and the temptation to smash my stuff is even higher. I think tis is what people call anger.

New Toy Syndrome

Liburan ini gua habiskan sama keluarga, termasuk unyil unyil lucu tapi badung. Gua perhatikan mereka tuh kalo dapet mainan baru wahh seneng banget kalo dipegang orang lain aja marah. Kakak gua aja sampe di tonjok hanya gara gara dia menganbil pedang baru ponakan gua. Tapi esok harinya, karena ponakan ponakan gua mempunyai hiburan baru, (mereka akan diajak jalan jalan ke taman Safari) ponakan gua itu langsung lupa sama pedang barunya itu. Bahkan ketika pedang itu gua bawa bawa terus, dia sudha tidak peduli, pertama karena dia sudha mempunyai sesuatu lain yang lebih menarik, dan kedua mungkin karena pedang itu sudah tidak baru lagi.

Kalo dipikir pikir itu memang trademark anak kecil banget gampang bosenan. Tapi yah kalau dipikir pikir sebetulnya bosenan itu adalah suatu sifat yang manusiawi banget dan tidak mengenal umur. Contohnya gua, dalam semasa hidup gua, gua penah menaruh ketertarikan di beragam bidang, gua pernah les mandarin, balet, nari bali, prancis, memasak, menjait, melukis, organ, karate, tae kwon do, mematung, menggambar, apa aja kayanya gua pernah dan semuanya itu tidak ada yang bertahan lebih dari setaun. Bahkan di dalam aspek romatisme pun gua gampang banget bosenan. Kayanya daftar gebetan gua bisa sehalaman penuh kali (walaupun so pasti semuanya seumur jagung). Kalo gua abis baca novel novel cinta yang selalu heroinenya hanya mencintai satu orang seumur hidupnya, gua suka bingung. Koq bisa ya seumur hidup engga bosen bosen.

Merry Christmas

Since this is Christimas, or at least it'f aftermath, I supose it is fitting to write about Christmas. I think I’ll reminisence a bit and share the two Christmas I remember most, my best Christmas and my worst.

My worst Christmas was when I was in first year. The first time I spend Christmas away from my family. And regretfully I spend it alone in Melbourne. All my friends are away (literelly all) and the city is dead (suppose everyone are home with their families). The day itself was uneventful, I took a train ride to Ferntree Gully visit my homestay for a while then after giving some lame excuses head back to city in another empty train and walk back to my flat. I was going to get something for dinner, but obviously everything is closed. I think that was the only time my aloneness become loneliness.

My best Christmas is still yet to come I hope. What it will be like, I don’t really know. But I do know what I hope it will be like. I hope on that Christmas day, I am a contented person. I hope it’ll be in my own home, a house I decorated myself. I hope the house will faintly smell ginger breads. I hope that I will sleep in after going to the midnite mass the eve before. I hope that everything is warm and cozy. I hope that I will spend it with my significant other.

In the mean time, Merry Christmas and remember your Best Christmas is just round the corner...

Words of Wisdom

Happiness is hou you percieve your life

It is the words left unsaid that weights upon us

Work is love made visible

It is better to lose than not having at all

But, the feeling of wanting and not having is also frustrating

Take your work seriously, but not yourself

Do not waste precious time reading nonsense like this

I am Happy

I am happy today because,

I get to spent my lunchtime and the 2 hours afterwards with my sisters and brother
I get to eat delicious ramen in a wonderful little place yesterday
I get to have virtual girltalk with my best friend for the whole day
I get to wake up this morning in my own room
I get to take a warm shower afterward
I get to watch DVD with my siblings all night
I get to go to work
I get to read mails from my friends
I get to receive calls and sms from people I care about
I get to laugh at myself
I get to be grateful and write this

Kids Say the Darnest things

Ini cuplikan cuplikan percakapan gua sama keponakan keponakan gua

Diva (4 tahun): Tante, pacarnya mana koq engga dateng?
Gua : Engg, tante ga punya pacar tuh
Diva: Ooo, masih milih milih yah (dengan muka penuh pengertian)

Gua: Lukas, lampunya jangan dipegang pengang nanti kesetrum!
Lukas (2,5 tahun): Lukas mau nyobain! (kesetrum maksudnya)

Diva: IIe, IIeitu siapa? (dengan senyum simpul)
Gua: Itu temen tante, div
Diva: oo, cakep kok IIe, engga pacaran?
Gua: Ya engga dong, kan temen tante dari dulu
Diva: Engga mau ya sama IIe (dengan muka mengasiani)

Gua: Lukas, koq pipisnya di lantai ! Jorok ah kamu. (panik dan bete)
Lukas: Engga papa koq , Ie (dengan nada menenangkan )

Seandainyaaa

Seandainya bisa gua pengen banget
bisa me milah milah perasaan gua
satu boks buat rasa senang
satu boks buat rasa patah hati
satu boks buat rasa takut
satu boks buat rasa tenang
satu boks buat rasa kesepian
pokoknya satu boks buat setiap perasaan yang gua punya
Terus kalo misalnya gua patah hati, tapi gua udah bosen
merasainnya gua bisa kumpulin masukin boks terus tutup boksnya
Terus gua bisa buka boks yang lain buat punya rasa yang laen
Kalo bisa begitu kan gua jadinya enak tidak akan terbawa perasaan terus
Asiknya asiknya... dan perasaan perasaan yang gak enak kaya patah hati
kesepian dsb pasti gua plester kenceng kenceng supaya ga usah di rasa
seandainyaaa

A Tiny Note to Myself

I wear high heels so people thinks
I am taller than i really am,
So they'll notice me more
But my feet are hurting

I wear unbelievable tight corset so people thinks
I am thinner than i really am,
So they'll gape at my body
But my chest is gasping for air

I paint meticulous make up so people thinks
I am prettier that i really am,
So they'll be mesmerised with my face
But my skiface is irritated

I teased my hair so people thinks
I am blessed with Godsent hair
So they'll want to stroke my flocks
But my scalp is dry and my hair splits

You see, it is what people thinks
that i worry of
and amid all that i forgot the one person that needs me most
myself

Morning with daddy

a smile breaking from his lovely face
two rounded pink cheeck dimpling
eyes shone at the sight of the bustling street
outside the long dark car he rides in

He hates his tiny suit though
especially his little bow tie,
but he likes the smell of the white roses
his dad let him hold

He's glad that he get to spend the morning with dad,
Something good must have happen
because on normal days his dad will be gone by now
And today his dad is holding his hand inside the marvelous car

The car had stop now,
In a parking lot that he does not recognise
Suddenly he miss his mummy,
Because the strage place frighten him

What he doesn't know was that
his mummy is infact with him
Inside the weird long box with carving
And he got to spend the morning with his dad
Because they're going to bury his mummy

Nothing

five twirling fingers
five shiny polished nails
counting the nights
hoping it'll all be over.

suppose when tomorrow comes
the world will still be the same
but the life isn't
and the longing will fade

funny, funny how things turns up
never what one wants
as if an invisible hands
are playing us like peons

sitting here gazing at nothing
wondering how it all had begin
why had the life intersect
only to be apart

Falsity Leads to Tears

Sometimes it is unavoidable to bend the truths for you advantage, be it in personal or professional lifes. And I am one great supporters for truth bending (is there such word?), but I am also a great supporter of consiousness. My number one motto is to act consiously all the time, be it good acts or bad stupid acts. Now back to truth bending, i do often do this for the purpose of saving uneccesary pains of other, or to selfishly gain advantage over a situation. But always this was done carefully and counsiously, and I only do this to the extend that will not implicate any pain to other parties. There was a common saying that words are like nails, once they’re nailed to a woodplank the scar will remains even though you pulled out the nails. That’s why it is crucial that when you bend the truths you have to make sure that the other’s party will not mistook your words.It is so easy to mislead a person through words and as the saying says words left scars. The bottom line is play all you want with truth and words but never play with feelings because as the title said it’ll lead to tears.