Missy&Cliff

A tribute to my lovely hen and her handsome rooster. The real Missy and Cliff

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Saturday, September 23, 2006

Percakapan dengan Tuhan

m: Bos... bos lagi sibuk gak?
T: yaaa... kenapa mon? Lagi sedih ya? koq manggil manggil...
m: engga sih, tapih pengen nanya
T: mau tanya apa memangnya? tanya lah
m: Bos, kenapa yah aku belakangan ini males ke gereja. Kayanya setiap kali mau ke gereja
pasti ada aja alesan...
T: loh koq nanyanya ke Saya sih? Itu kan mestinya kamu sendiri yang tau sih.
m: Ya iya sih, tapi kan aku ke gereja untuk nemuin Bos. Buat menjalanin ibadah seperti yang bos mau.
T: Mon, walaupun kamu adalah putriku yang gak terlalu pintar mestinya kamu tau dong bahwa
Saya tidak pernah memaksa kamu untuk melalukan apapun. Bahwa Saya pengen kamu ke gereja setidaknya hari minggu, iyah itu benar. Tapi itu terserah kamu mau pergi apa tidak.
m: engg, jadi bos engga marah kalo aku engga ke gereja?
T: Mon, coba pikir sebetulnya gereja itu apa?
m: emm, rumah Tuhan.
T: kamu kalo pulang ke rumah kenapa?
m: yah karena cape, pengen istirahat, pengen ketemu orang rumah, yah karena itu rumahku.
T: Nah, sama dong karena kamu tuh anakKu, by deduction gereja itu adalah rumah kamu. Pulanglah kalo kamu lelah, kalau kamu kangen Aku, atau yah kalau kamu merasa kamu masih butuh ketemu Aku. Semua itu adalah pilihan mon. Tapi ingat sampai kapan pun kamu akan selalu disambut di rumahKu.
m: Bos... maafin aku yah....

Thursday, September 21, 2006

Terima Kasih

Ini norak dan cengeng
layaknya kartu ucapan murahan
namun di pikiranku selalu mendengung dengung
Jadi maaf dan biarkan saya mengungkapkan

Terima kasih nyet
karena kalian aku bisa bahagia sekarang
melewati masa masa engga banget
dikala kalian sabar ketika aku meraung

Mulai dari lindung cah fumak
sampai chili crab
Dari mata sembab
sampai racauan yang enggak

Aduh jangan mulai mencibir
Sungguh saya tidak berlebihan
Saya hanya bersyukur
dan saya sayang kalian

Ps: Jangan terlalu ge er yah... tapi mwah buat semua yang berasa...=)

Friday, September 15, 2006

Requiescat in Pace

As a great believer that happiness is how you percieve your life (my own phrase btw), i believe that in every sad stories hides funny stories, it's just a matter of looking for them. Just like how funny things actually happened during my 'greatest' ordeal namely my break up, funny things had also happened during the other 'greatest' ordeal i had during the last year namely my dad's death. Well yes it was a year ago, but hey better late than never right? It's been quite a while so even though the feeling is still familiar the occurence has become a bit blur, but i'm sure there were some laugh being shared then.
The first one was at the crematorium. While waiting for my father being cremated, the rest of us was lounging, chatting, remembering my dad, and basically just doing nothing. Then i begin to feel a bit stomach achey, and i decide to visit the loo. The stomach ache is growing but it did not seem to want to relieve itself. 5 minutes pass, 10 minutes pass, 15 minutes pass and i'm still in the loo trying to relieve myself to no avail. Sweating in the loo i overheard my brother asking my then boyfriend where i was, and he told him that i was in the loo. Then i heard my brother laugh, mind you i don't know why but he always find that number 2 is a funny business. 20 minutes pass, 30 minutes pass, and i overheard my sister waking up my then boyfriend who had dozed off while waiting for me. She then went into the loo knocking at my door, and before i know it there had got to be about 5 of my siblings, in laws, and cousins in the loo crowding at my door. Yes, they were only checking whether i was allright, but by jove i can hear their giggling and traces of amusement on their voice. And to this day whenever we visit papa, my brother still likes to reminds me of my stint at the crematorium's loo. Making my ex fall asleep while i'm relieving myself.
The second funny thing was at dinner post funeral. We all gathered at home and had leftovers. Among the many leftovers there was 'saren' a sort of traditional dish. Realising that my ex never tried it, i force him to have it. Being a good sport he comply, and start eating it. He said that it taste a bit funny, and i told him that it's supposed to taste like that. Being a good sport, he accepted my explanation and finish his piece. My brother then also took a piece. As we chat he took a bite, chew it, then spat it exclaiming that it was spoiled. I then took a tiny bit, and yes it was spoiled.
The third funny thing was during one of our visit to papa's columbarium. As usual we will have a short prayer, and on that day i was given the task to read the reading. I mixed up 'keledai' which means donkey and 'kedelai' which means soy, i started to giggle, and couldn't continue to read, so then my sister take over, but being a giggly person herself soon she found herself giggling uncontrollably and stopped reading. My mum then take over and continue reading, buuuttt... maybe feeling like she was with a bunch of giggly school girls she unconciously assume that kinder schoolchildren tone, and it also doesn't help that the she change the reading to her preference. So instead of 50 sheeps, she said 70 sheeps, and things like that. The crunch of course when she got to the end of the reading and goes".... so theeen, theyyy aaaallll dddiiieee"
and my sister bursts out laughing, and soon all of us were pealed with laughter. And i'm jolly sure that up there my dad was shaking his head wondering how did he ended up raising a bunch of clowns.

Jumat

Hari jumat....
Membuat hatiku gembira
Lupa akan semua penat
bekerja malas tak terkira

Akhir pekan
Lega bisa bermalas malasan
Tidur hingga matahari bersinar terik
Tanpa weker yang berderik

Tuesday, September 12, 2006

Life & all

Life is like a code with endless if statements and loops... err okay tat sounds really geeky...
mind you i am NOT a GEEK... NOR am i a NERD... but i just like to rationalize things...
Say from the day you are born and pooped out from your mother's womb u were faced with your first if statement
if (you breath)
then (you live)
if (you live)
then...
else (you die)

You know what i mean? Each tiny decisions that you make is an if statement that will lead you
to another inner if statement, and it just go on and on and on... till of course at one if statement
you decide to die...

The reason i'm pointing out this fact? Well honestly i jolly dun know... Just trying to put life in an explainable form i guess....

Saturday, September 02, 2006

no title... from my journal

It has been a week and a year ago that papa passed away, silently and discretly. Was he in pain? Was he scared? I would never know. Maybe he was glad. Glad to be free of all the world's tiddlings. And life goes on for the rest of us continuing to deal with every little tiddlings the world has to offer. Days still come and go, life change, people change, and the world still turns.
Am i sad? No, strangely i am not. Do small things still reminds me of him? Yes, no doubt. When i see wrinkled skin of an unknown old uncle in the hawker center my heart stirs and i think of papa's wrinkly dry skin. Do i still dream of him? No, not really. Other things occupies my dream, other people, other stories, other aches. Do i still wish him to be around? No, not quite. Whats the point of wishful thinking anyway what's done is done. Do i still love him? Yes, very much so. Even more than ever, i guess it's true what people said about you'll never know the value until it's gone. Do i miss him? No, i try not to. After all missing is for something you have lost, and i have not lost him, how could i? When he's in the very air i breath in every second. Lastly do i still talk to him? Yes, every day, in my prayers and in my heart.
Godspeed Papa.
Love'
pink pink