Clingy

Again I’m stealing time… but then again it’s almost knock off time and I’ve exhaust my brain for the day, so I figure I’ll recharge myself by writing something.

A few days ago a good friend of mine had confided about her relationship. It wasn’t such a big thing but it had gotten us to start a very interesting conversation about “How clingy is clingy?” In a nutshell her boyfriend felt that she was too clingy and not giving him the space he needed. It came as a surprise to her since she felt that she had given him ample room and she didn’t feel that she was clingy at all.

To me it sounds really familiar, as a renowned drama queen my exes would happily testify about my clingy-ness and my over analyzing. But of course the question is what is considered as being too clingy? Does expecting a call at least once a day is considered as clingy while you’re apart? Or is one call a day Ok but expecting a call every morning and night is clingy? If you ask me, a call every morning and night is still Ok even when you’re busy. But then again of course I’m a girl and I like receiving those ‘no reason’ phone calls. I guess it’s flattering to know that someone is thinking of you even at his busiest time. After all what’s a 3 minutes call? A mere sms or a 3 minutes call only takes a tiny fraction of one’s time. Hey if it’s me I would spare 3 minutes to sms even at my busiest time I mean one would still need a break and sms ing someone I like is a good enough break for me.

Buuttt, the flaw of this argument is that again I’m not a guy. All guidebooks would tell you that guys doesn’t function the same way as girls are (believe me, I read tons of those books). Basic example generally guys are known to be poor multi taskers and girls can do 3 things in one time. So just because I would happily sms someone I like during my break it doesn’t mean it can be applied to a guy. Don’t ask me what a guy will think about this. Whether like me he’d also feel that sms ing someone he likes is as good break as anything or he prefer not to be distracted at all. I’m not a guy after all, but I guess the message is that we are just different creatures. Hence to answer the question of how clingy is clingy, well I guess you and your partner have to works it out since no same formula can be applied.

Oh one last thing don’t trust my word too much ok, since you who know me would know already I’m hopeless in relationship department. I just hope Mr.W doesn’t read this, or if you do… no it’s not about us babe, but if you want to call me more often I’d be happy to receive your calls hohohohoho….

Prickly

Again I’m stealing time since I need to vent out my soul and I guess it’s easier to just write about it instead of whining to a friend given the circumstances (read: outlook is being stupid n in new job so cannot make personal calls).
For my closer people I guess as everyone you all know I have finally moved to Sydney and with flying colors. I manage to sort out my stuff in Singapore get a job here in less than a week and I guess more or less get myself settled here.
I guess it’s not so much of a big deal for most people, I mean people do move around and it’s not like I’m moving to some God’s forsaken land. But anyhow I guess somehow I’m drained now. The last couple of years has been a whirlwind affair packed with lessons learn, heartache, development, basically everything. Now I’m not asking for muffin basket or anything, but oh please give me a break. I’m sorry to be such a whiner, but I’ve gone through enough stuff for now at least. All the while I’ve been marching along since I know that everything were temporary, the happiness, the sadness. But I guess now I’m in a stage where I don’t really have the energy to march anymore and I just want to sit still for a while till I can muster some energy.
So yeah like I said, I’m not asking for muffin basket, but please give me a break and appreciate what I have gone through and came out from. Let me tell you it wasn’t such an easy ride. So if I hear one more word about me being a slacker and about me should start taking charge of my life, I swear I would strangle you. I swear I would let the nasty me come out and tear you to pieces, bits by bits !!

B...

I’m stealing time to write today because my B just lost her grandfather after a long battle with his illness. One should think by this time I’m used to this already considering there had been quite a number of losses among my closest people. Yet whenever it happens I cannot help not to feel for those who just lost their loved ones. I’m sad that B is experiencing this loss, but more than that I felt sorry that I’m so far away that I could not do much for her.

When my dad passed away B was a tower of strength and she had showered so much attention to me and my family by doing little things like showing up to my place every day bringing little treats. I will always love her for that and for a lot of other things. As much as I like my independence and freedom living away from home at times like this I regret of moving away.

Sunday blues

I feel so blue i dunno wat to do... I guess i might resolve in moping a while later. I hate it when one of those blue mood hits you like a thunder and u feel so resolutely blue and all u want to do is moping. Missing Singapore...

My Boss up there & His kindness

I had wanted to write a long and emotionally charged piece about how God have always takes care of me and once again He has shown His greatness in my life. But then again i decide it's not really me to write a ' Religious Testimonial' especially a long one. So then i decide to just do a short one about how the Guy up there have very kindly worked things out for me.

I came back to OZ a couple of weeks ago rather worried about getting a job here, mainly because the last time i tried to find a job in OZ i ended up becoming unemployed for 6 months on which my faith was tested so badly. If you're so idle, you can read abt it somewhere in the archive i guess. So i kinda told the Guy up there to be nice to me this time since i've been thru a lot the last couple of years. As always the never ending negotiation with Him n convince Him to make my plan His plan.

So anyway, guess what i've managed to secure a job within the first week i arrived and a not so bad job either !! And the interview process n all happened in a day. So yeah i was quite a lucky bastard and of course my Man up there must hv clock in some extra hours to made this happen for me. So yeah You rock man !!